I'm getting really tired of living.

As Cassie says, it's time to chat about what's getting you down.

From what I remember you are of the age, and group with a high suicide rate. It's generally believed that your age is the best as you have youth on your side. Yes, it's great to be physically that age, but mentally, there's a lot of trauma about which people don't seem to want to recognise.

Honestly, life gets better as you age. If I had the magic wand, I would not return to my twenties. I would return older, even with the ageing process on my body, it would still be worth it.

If you can get through this stage, you will be all the happier for it.

So, what irks you today?

You won't need to kill yourself: you need to find motivation to correct your problems. If you're buried six feet under you'll never sort out your life. You will always be just a memory. The best revenge you can have is stay alive.

Time seems to be going slowly but time is a constant. You are moving with time. This means things WILL change. But you need to make it right: not commit suicide. I truly believe if push came to shove would you really take that overdose - or heaven forbid - take a gun to your head?

My friend has always threatened suicide. But when I was talking to her a while ago what she said indicated she didn't want to kill herself at all. It was just a way to get the ambulance to take her to hospital. But she told me she did not intend to commit suicide at all. An overdose would be three pain pills. Or dangling her legs out of the window - when she didn't want to jump. Or even do a tiny cut on her arm, claiming she was self harming. Vicky does it all for attention.

You're not Vicky - and do sound suicidal - but do you really want to go through it? Or are you just reaching out for help?

Leaf. I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling this way! I'm not in your situation, but I've been going through a rough time as well. Remember, death is a permanent "solution" to a temporary problem...and believe me, all problems are temporary. All we can do is take it one day at a time. Don't let those bastards win!

That being said, I can't top all these wonderful ladies' advice.

Death is beautiful only when living is embraced with peace and contentment in one's heart.

When pressures in living or surviving is compounded, death often becomes appealing in one's mind. Overtime, mind becomes overwhelmed and coping mechanism got swamped with so much stress. Leaf, you sound very tired, frustrated from everything around you. Most of all, you sound lonely. You may be feeling so alone. So lonely.

Words of a very good mentor and friend of mine in my youth stays with me. He said that a human heart can take anything. Anything - poverty, deception, rejection and even disloyalty. Give heart "loneliness" and it would wither away. I am hoping that you will find a companion in your darkest times. A companion that will make you truly feel that "hey, you are not alone. I'm always here for you."

Do not let society determines who you are or what you are. You are precious and special because YOU are.

In what you're undergoing through now, may you find the right support system that could truly help you. 

May you have the faith, the courage and the love you need to be YOU. Until then, you will be in my prayers.

How are you?

TestDummyCO
> Remember, death is a permanent "solution" to a temporary problem...and believe me, all problems are temporary.
If death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and all problems are temporary. Therefore, wouldn't death be a solution to all problems?

Death is a drastic "solution" - for lack of a better word - and should never be an option.

You are very young Leaf: you could well live to be 95 years old. You're not as old as you think.

I write this because my Nan turns 99 years old this year. She was 20 years old 79 years ago. Those problems are long since over. You are certainly not a granny yet! And problems don't last forever. There are solutions - NEVER death - that ease your problems and make your life easier. You have to face your problems: not run away by killing yourself.

You're right though: life is hard but you can make your life better by tackling one problem at a time and being patient with yourself.

Suicide prevention works only with those willing to work at a soloution.



I dont think I did miss anything and I didnt say anything about hard work just working for a solution that includes being open minded enough to accept one..

How long have you been feeling this way? and how frequent? What triggered this thought? Do you think you have mental issues or are you experiencing any problems that made you feel this way?

Sorry to ask too many questions, but I do believe there is a possible solution for every problem.  

Hope you can share with us so that we can contribute our solutions.

I can imagine that being fired up about this topic could be used to dream up real solutions and improved suicide prevention. You could be one of the people who brings others out of feeling so low and hopeless because you truly do understand. Of course, that might mean you'd have to stick around for years to come in order to put those solutions into practice...

I had a cousin who died young and a grandpa who died old, both from self-inflicted gunshot wounds. When it was my cousin, I imagined there was a hidden story - he couldn't really have wanted that ending when he wasn't even 20 yet... It was an accident, or it was his friends to blame since there was a party at the house that weekend... That was my way of coping at the time. When it was my grandpa, I was really mad about it. How dare he cut short the rest of his days with us? How dare he give up? Now, about sixteen years after my grandpa's death, I'm just sad about both of those cases. Sad for me, sad for them...

The thing is that even if you believe you don't matter, others believe you do. Even if you're sure no one would miss you, there are people who need your input and your personality in their lives. They need the connections you've had with them, or will have if you haven't yet met them.

I also don't think that talking about wanting spiritual annihilation after death fits with the verse in your signature. That verse says to me that you acknowledge that there is Someone who loves you, yet your posts say otherwise. Why is that? What's really going on? Maybe you're believing a lie that there's no one to love you and you're unseen. That is definitely not true, since we're here talking with you and caring about you! I also do believe that Someone in Matthew 25:40 exists, loves you like crazy, and has great work for you to do in the world. Relational work, helping others and spreading hope wherever you go.

Stick with us, hon. Let's put our minds on things that cheer us up, and maybe the solutions to the world's problems will become evident as we focus on bright topics!

As always, more hugs coming your way!