Advice on how to learn better? (G)

hey everyone how are you all

Probs recovering after my novel length thoughts on Horror films ha

I sort of just wanna talk is there any science stuff to be found about how to learn better / be determined enough to learn, I heard it all the time during school all these hacks ect and highlighted cards ha

Just scared , I dont know if I have a lesson tomorrow (for driving) and if so I would rather lie but I cant - gonna get asked have you booked your test so far no, sort of wanna keep forgetting about it after having a nightmare when trying to cancel it when unwell and I haven't really practiced for ages just want it all gone so tired of theory test hanging over my shoulder, I've been thinking about practicing with my friends but I have more chance of getting struck by lighting ha

Half of it is common sense they say just scared cause my family paid for it , my Brother is a genius and I dont wanna go through this again and get told you didn't try hard enough, I was doing tests like every day for a while then the driving started going down hill so I gave in thinking whats the point if I cant even drive and just wanted to focus on getting better with that which last time I cried to the teacher again and hopefully its gonna be fixed with auto for a change just fed up of tests - I gave up at school with revision for a lot of subjects and I dont know if its really been my style anyway

At school I was great at Science always have been and apparently maths anyway in the middle set and eventually moved up to 2nd and nearly in first with 7's sometimes and 6's in exams , then we had terrible teachers and especially for maths we had awful ones and I didn't get it anymore maths become worse and worse, things dropped and then everyone says revise and I started that and each time I really tried like with science and revised I got worse marks in my exams then with no revision, think it all confused me and this kept happening in all subjects revision was making things worse and stressing me out so I gave up on it, we had bad teachers a good maths one then he left and a scary one and by this point maths was like gone for me and science the teacher was over ruled by the class we learnt nothing every lesson and someone throw acid down my neck so that's that

I even did after school maths in the last year, and you know what - we had a big like summer holiday and when I went back we did after school maths (oh I had a tutor for many years too for maths) and every after school lesson was just the teacher giving us a test paper and thats that - just do an exam each time and I got back from this break and literally maths went out my head nothing in the papers made sense I couldn't do it and I cried cause just soo sick of it going wrong and everyone doing it and I had no idea how to do maths anymore and its always stupid as each teacher has their own style and says this is the way to do it then you get a new teacher and everything they taught you is wrong and doesn't work anymore and I had that with the after school everything she said was opposite to what I had learned and this exam back from holidays really killed maths for me

So apart from English were I was good, then went down a bit I think and then had a scary teacher who looked exactly like my Brother I dropped but fortunately had the best teacher ever and who became my support teacher when I was home schooled, he is soo kind and really helped me and I did some revision but it was helpful and the lessons were good crazy class but friendly in a way, I started opening up and he gave me all these sheets for revision about the stories ect - I smashed it two 5's in English and he said he was soo proud of me I could just remember a Christmas Carol back to front wrote soo much about it and the poems was touch learning 15 off by heart and they ask you about 2 at random but I got it soo sweet

So other all I am not super at revision and everyone says half of driving is common sense yes but whats the rest soo many questions just fear it and wanted to get better at driving now scared about booking and arriving at the right place and the test need some help I think like maybe practice questions here just to get me back into it cause the thought of it all worries me enough were I just dont wanna look at revision questions for it anymore

Also I kept writing and writing kinda a comfort cause its all playing on my mind and I dont wanna sleep dont know if I have the lesson tomorrow as I say nobody has told me and its not a weekend day now just scared of it all this test aspect is affecting the driving aspect cause I fell like the teacher will be disappointed in me ect

So any science ways that can help or maybe a few practice questions like some real some fake I guess to make me thing about it ha

Take care everyone stay positive hugs

Regards - Declan Sargent