Confused to say the least Apr 3, 2022 23:29:57 GMT -5
Post by VanessaNDF on Apr 3, 2022 23:29:57 GMT -5
Short and sweet....
I'm not really sure how to even start this.
But basically, I'm talking to this guy, he lives in another state ,he travels for work... I've known him since 2018 and met him twice. The second time I met up with him, was about 6 months ago. He was working near by and he came to see me over the weekend back in October..
The problem is, he doesn't talk to me much these days. When we started talking the very first time, we texted everyday until we didn't.
Then when we started things up again, I got used to only hearing from him a few times a month due to his job. But now, since we last saw each other back in October, he hasn't said a damn word to me. At all. For almost 6 months. I want to give this man the benefit of the doubt, but my anxiety has different plans.
Like I mentioned before, I was already used to not hearing from him but a few times a month, (sometimes even more) due to his job. I get that, but I can't go and see him and he can't come and see me all the time, so the only thing left is texting and calling on the phone. So when I don't hear from him, I get a little worried and that's when Miss Anxiety decides to step in and make me think all kinds of stupid crap.
I love this man. I am in love with this man. He told me that he loves me too when we were together and that's the first time he has said that to me and we've known each other since 2018.
So hearing him say that and then he go 6 months with no word...it just makes me think things that I don't want to think about.
I've sent so many texts of 'I miss you', 'are you ok', 'why all the silence'...etc etc. And still nothing. I've had every emotion you could have in this situation.
I'm at the point where I've stopped texting him cause I just can't anymore.
I hope he will respond at some point soon cause I do miss him and I do hope he's ok.
At the end of the day, I want nothing more then to spend the rest of my life with this man. I can't see myself with anyone else and I don't want to. He's the only one that I want.
I also don't want to spend the rest of my life alone either, but if he and I somehow don't work out, I will have no other choice...cause I'm not gonna do all of this again. It's too much.