Let down. Yet again people have shown themselves for what they are and it stings.
I have so been there with patients, and I always think it is preventable by expecting it to happen. But I still feel disappointed when it happens. I honestly don't mind patients dumping me. It's their money, and their right to do so. Just don't make out I am wonderful, and we are great friends on the way there.
The last one was a cancer patient I had been seeing her for years, and when she got cancer, I told her she could cancel at any time if she didn't feel up to it, and she did.
A year after she was clear, I went to her house, but the road was blocked off by workmen relaying the road. It would be a 15 minute walk to get to her house, and 15 minutes back. I couldn't afford that much time as I was fully booked. I phoned them up and apologised. Her husband apologised to me, as they had known about it, and forgotten to tell me. We agreed a new appointment for the following week.
A few days later, he left a message on my answer machine cancelling all future appointments as "We felt let down when you didn't arrive."
It had taken me years to take to them and decide that their bonhomie, friendship, and compliments were genuine, and how wrong was I?
I felt really really tired this morning and could hardly move. I'm back to normal now but I don't want starts like that
I don't think I am 100% as several time when I was in the supermarket today I accidently got in peoples' way or ran into them. As it's school holidays it may have partly been that it was busier but I'm not usually that bad.
Im running on borrowed time. I was out last night and didnt get in until 1am but we were up at 6am to go walking with the dogs so at some point today I know I will crash.