Hi!

Thank you! No, I never have, actually... I did have a brief period where I fantasized about going to Oxford, but that's hilarious, considering I never liked studying. After primary school I went to secondary school/general high school and failed, the year after that I went to vocational school for environmental protection (I did quite well here, I didn't study much, but I was one of the best students in my class), then I wanted to go to college for design, but wasn't accepted. I was accepted to college for environmental protection and finished with a diploma (Bachelor's degree). Then I realized jobs are practically non-existent (at least in this field), despite the fact that environmental sciences were always promoted as something that is going to be very much needed for the future in every company etc. I also lost interest in environmental sciences and decided to go back to school and in 2019 I finished vocational school for a cosmetician (pretty sure it's aesthetician in the US). Then I got my first job in a spa in january 2020 and lost my first job in a spa in march 2020.

So yeah, career-wise my 28 years have been more of a fail than a win and I think I will always regret taking the easy way out and not putting in more effort in finishing high school instead of vocational school. All of my classmates from that year of high school are now doctors and professors and I felt like such a black sheep when I went to the reunion a couple of years ago. Knowing that if I had just looked up to them more instead of envying them and put a few hours every day into studying and figuring out my weaknesses and working on them, I could also be a vet, a lawyer or a professor and actually be desired in these times instead of being kicked out at the first opportunity has just been such a rough realization for me.

It's not all so bad though, I realize now how much I'm lacking in life and that I will never know everything, that all I can do is to keep being curious and putting effort into living and not just always take the easy route. So I guess I can say I've learnt my lesson. I have many interests and I'm trying to turn as many of them into hobbies as I possibly can, I'm trying to learn something new every day, keep my brain and body in a good shape and be more open-minded. I'm trying to grow as a person and be the best version of myself that I can possibly be, now I just need to accept that that's perfectly good enough.